off again lol

well it is time for me to go back down to the sunshine coast (8 hours south) to finalize the lease on my house and finally be permanently living with tazz at cooee bay, north qld, australia - paradise!!
had planned to be away 8-9 days then my sister asked me to stay down for her 40th wedding anniversary party & her daughters engagement party. so i had decided to go but for the last few days have been having panic attacks (which i havent had for many years) and just felt really uncertain about going to this party. they do tend to have huge parties and some of the family including me leave when her husband & a lot of their friends get just too drunk. i dont mind people drinking around me but it gets "old" lol and i just can go when i feel i want to. This time though i am not taking my car & kept getting this awful "unsafe" feeling.
I finally realized that it was my God consciousness telling me that it might not be good for me. My brother in law and I have had issues in the past so maybe that is what might happen. Anyway instead of feeling that way I have listened to that inner voice i now call God, and am sticking to my original plan & not staying for the party. Some people might not understand that reasoning but my mum did so that is what is important & my emotional well being is paramount to my program. Because usually nothing much fazes me, I feel i was "warned" by God in order to keep me my usual safe self. I wasn't worried about drinking, just the atmosphere that sometimes is, at their parties. So I will be be back by the 13th & may have internet access a couple of days while i am away.
so welcome to all who join in that time & will catch up with you when I get back to my new home. hugsz aussie