life turned upside down

i am writing this blog with not really knowing what to say. my head is spinning in all sorts of directions. ive learned through out the years in AA that as long as i talk about whats going on, and don't pick up a drink i will stay sober. i moved to arizona six years ago to be with my partner. we bought a house last year and moved in on christmas. the week before christmas i lost my job. the week of christmas, my partner decided to end our six yrs and 9 months relationship. she is keeping the house, because i am not working and cannot afford the mortgage. it is very upsetting. she was my first relationship in sobriety. i love her still and am very much in love with her. my pride and my ego are getting in the way of me making decisions. if she is able to assume the loan, she can have the house. but she wants me to be out of the house in three months time, regardless if i am working or not. we are so emotionally and financially intertwined that im afraid when its all said and done, it will be a very hostile and ugly ending. not what i would like to see. her reasoning for the split is because she says she can't be with someone who doesnt believe in the same god and her. my views of god havent changed.  what has changed this past year, while reworking the steps with my sponsor and being more involved in aa is my views on how my life was going and what i needed to changed within myself. examples: i have always been in codependant relationships, including this one, and i made a decision for me to change how i reacted and responded to situations. i started taking control of my own life. also, for the last few years, the way we handled situations in our relationship was very unhealthly. we try to talk, we begin to argue, then we say mean and hurtful things to each other then shut down. then for three or four days i get the silent treatment. i chose about two months ago i was no longer going to engage in that cycle. when an arguement started i would simply say im not going to fight with you. to her that meant i shut down and will not discuss it anymore. which is not the case, just not engaging in that sick unhealthy cycle. also, we used to go to church when we first got together. which, was the one thing we had in common. once i started changing me, i realized i no longer wanted to go to church. for me, it is organized religion and i do not want to be a part of that. i am spiritual but not religious. and, we hadnt been to church in three years except on christmas eve. so im really confused as to what she is referring to. so ive gone back to the basics of aa. keeping it simple and doing 90 meetings in 90 days. calling my sponsor everyday. i am so grateful for my family in alcoholics anonymous for being there so graciously without me asking for help. without them, i could not go through with this.