I had to let go...

This is one of the hardest blogs to write. A week ago my ex-husband found me on Facebook. We have been talking and I realized that I still had some feelings there. We were talking about maybe getting back together, and trying to make a new life with each other. But this program and my Spirituality that has come from a lot of time and hard work, made me see that he has a bad drinking problem. I didn't want to see it at first, but this program and my beliefs, have taught me to be honest with myself and others. I just finished writing and sending a e-mail to him, telling him that for myself I have to stop talking to him, because I have fought to hard for my recovery and the life I have now to go back to that pain again. I told him that I felt he had a problem and I couldn't help him. I suggested he try going to some meeting and just listen and make up his own mind about what was the right road for him. That was a very hard thing for me to do. I feel pain for him and pain telling him the truth. Right now I'm dealing with my feelings, and today I can feel the pain and go through it. I know its okay to cry, to feel for others, but know when to draw that line. I can only fix myself, I can't fix someone else, all I can do is tell the truth, the rest is up to them. Now I have to have the strength to stay away from him and anyone else who can take away the gift that I have gotten from being clean and sober. I need your prayers and your support to stay strong in my decision. I'm grateful for all of you being here.


Blessing....
Coyote