Let's start a Daily Reflections discussion - keep it about AA

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Permalink Reply by I,B on February 2, 2012 at 4:36am

DR for Feb 2 talks about the alkie's ego, belief in personal power, and the desire to maintain that feeling of self-empoweredness.  It takes me back to my 20's.  I thought I was smarter than everyone at work, and I was frustrated because people wouldn't follow my obvious suggestions for improving our situations.  I still get that way, but AA and other groups remind me that there is a Higher Power who might have better plans.  I should sit back and watch for a while.

Permalink Reply by I,B on February 4, 2012 at 4:48am

Bill’s DR, Feb 4: they think they have faith and found it wanting

DR author: I kept coming back and gradually my faith was resurrected.

In the rooms, we hear that we can’t blame anything outside of ourselves for our drinking, but I like to think that I drank over early childhood experiences.

In the rooms, I heard people say that they used to blame God for failing them before they found the gentler Higher Power of AA.  Maybe I was blaming God, too, for my “why me” anger when I was too little to understand the concept of God.  I carried that anger to give me the energy to leave home without resources.

Now, when I get a chance, for my 11^th step, I meditate upon spiritual literature with extra time on the word “bless”.  I substitute an image of a healing balm cleansing the folds of my brain and making it supple, so that the removal of hard-heartedness caused by the anger from old memories will free me to be more sensitive to others.