Hi I am Glenda & I am an alcoholic. When I got sober on the 4th March, 1998 it was the beginning of my spiritual growth which was stunted because of my drinking. I was brought up in a christian and fun home & have no bad memories of my childhood until I decided I knew better than my parents and that's when it all started lol !
Against all advice when I joined AA, I became involved with a fellow aa member who was 1 year sober and I was 2 days - yes, 2 days! We were engaged then married and for the first 9 years of my sobriety I was with this man.
In the last 12 months of the marriage, I could not in good conscious be the "glenda" he wanted me to be - my part in that is, that i let myself become that "glenda". He did not like the real glenda as i would not let him control my life anymore. So without a fight, he just walked out one day taking my 2 teenage stepsons with him (they lived with us) It was absolutely devastating to me and worse because he was my carer. I was on a walking stick from a bone disease and fibromyalgia and chemo medication once a week (which i still have to take). I was unable to hang out my own washing or sit in a car for more than 10 minutes without agony.
The next big burst of spiritual growth came when my ex left me - I finally grieved for my other marriages and it was so intense that i could feel my heart shattering (i am sure you know what i mean). But after a few weeks of sticking close to AA; friends & family, I realized I was happy in my heart even though I was grieving. At the same time I had been forgetting to take some of my medication, and yet i was improving and losing weight as I had let go of stress.
Everyone saw, except me in hindsight, that my ex was sucking the life out of me but I don't blame him as that is just his journey - yes, he could have handled it better but what was done was done and over. Within 6 months I had lost over 20 lbs without trying and down from 24 pills per day to 3! Also when he left, my eyes were "dead" and I am known for my mischievous eyes as they sparkle and as I went along in my single life, doing what was indicated I became ME!!! finally.
Next thing to happen was that I found I could drive all over the coast to different AA meetings in the car - something I just couldn't do. I realized that I had received a miracle from God and all I had to do was be the best glenda i can be each day.
Now, 2 years down the track, I have lost over 70 lbs eating what i want (& I have always struggled with it before this), do all my house & yard work (pulled a fence down last week lol !) and I can ride an 1800cc motorbike and sit on it for hours without pain! I believe in miracles because I am one!! My doctors & specialists can't explain it, but I know I was granted this miracle by God.
I suppose what I am trying to share is, that even when you are feeling as your life is going so bad that it is breaking your heart, God always has plans for us. He obviously has plans for me an I need to be healthy for those plans. I am already doing things now in service work, that wasnt possible before.
If I trust my instincts or God consciousness, & do the right thing to the best of my ability, God will give me everything i need. It may not be what I want but it is always what I need!
How amazing is sobriety???
Please share some of your experiences in sobriety with your spiritual growth.
Thanks for letting me share this huge post lol !!
Photos attached so you can see what I mean - first one is March 07 the night before my ex left
second one is a photo of me now - quite a difference!!

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It's funny how when I'm reminded of your story, I get jolted back to when I first read it & how I see you now. I'm like "oh Sh*t , that's right, that's her story". We clean up nicely* It's Amazing how far you've come & how far we all have & can still.

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