Fighting the good fight

I am going to a family reunion this Sunday, Sept 5th at the beach.  I am wearing out my little worry stone with the fact this family really loves to have a good time, if you know what I mean.  I am 2 1/2 yrs sober and go to about 4 mtgs a week, am the groups secretary, and chair each Friday night.  I truly love the opportunity to be of service to AA and I feel I have a good foundation with working the steps and having a delightful sponsor.  I have discussed this uncertainty and fear, she feels I will be ok because I always have a backup plan.  If the party gets to happy, I have my car and I love to shop the litte stores at the beach.  I have relapsed several times since 1999 when I started my journey for sobriety, this is the longest I have been sober and I flat love it.  Ain't sober living a hoot!!  Anyway, thought I would maybe get some experience, strengths, and hopes from my cyber friends who have conquered these types of situations.  I made it thru my daughters wedding in August of 2009 without a hitch, didn't even want a drink, a total miracle for me.  I have taken this to my God and He knows I am concerned, my faith tells me that He is in control and not to worry.  But there is that itty bitty thought that oops, I might falter.  My life would be null and void if that would occur, without sobriety, I would cease to exist.  I would die of a very painful horrible death as a drunk.  I've always kept the thought foremost that I want to die sober, and have my God greet me and say "Good life my child, come on in."  Ya'll know what I mean?  Welcome all feedback.  Luvs ya'll.

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Permalink Reply by Rico on September 2, 2010 at 9:32pm
Hi Gloria...!

Your family reunion sounds like another great day to stay sober. It doesn't matter how much time you have, what you do in AA, or how many meetings a week you attend, the point of this whole deal is to NOT drink TODAY no matter what (family reunions included). If you truly have that good foundation, your backup plan, and the right motive to be there, then you will be a great example to your family of how the program works! If you feel that little tinge that you might falter, then perhaps take your sponsor along with you or don't attend at all....Rico
Permalink Reply by Gloria Reynolds on September 3, 2010 at 8:46am
Thank you Rico, you totally put a new perspective on my upcoming reunion. I never thought about this as possibly a positive opportunity. My being sober may plant a seed in someone elses life about how their future could be changed for the better. Gosh, what a concept. There is one guy that is sweet as sugar with a heart of gold that we are sure his brain cells are extremely affected and we all love him so much. I just may do a little 12 steppin' this weekend. I am chairing tonight and we are beginning in chapter 7 so how is that for a cowinky dink, (actually the hand of God working in my life). Thanks again Rico, may your day be filled with wonder and joy.

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