Step 3 - Made a decision to turn our will and our lives our to the care of God as we understood Him.
I would like to hear how surrendering and applying the third step has helped you.
I have been sober a little over 5 1/2 years. I got married in the program to a fellow alcoholic. I know that it was wrong looking back. We nearly destroyed each other. We quit working with newcomers, quit showing up for our regular meetings, fell away from service work. We did everything that you are told not to do. We fought A LOT. We have been seperated for almost a year now and going through the divorce.
I avoid the meetings that I know he goes to. I pray for him and the people I resented who were involved. I still call my sponsor everyday and actually am honest. Almost always, I follow through with her suggestions. I sponsor several newcomers, I am involved in service work again.
There's just so many changes going on in my life. I had to move, cut expenses, change jobs. I constantly turn my will and my life over to God, but part of me wants to scream, "Where are you going with all of this."
My life isn't the way I had planned it. I have grown. I am blessed in so many areas. I am still sober. But I really thought things would look different at this stage.
So, I'm putting this out there. I know that life in recovery is a series of surrenders. When we give it to God over and over and over. I want to hear messages of hope. Times that you didn't understand what was happening, but when you came out on the other side...it was 100 times better than you imagined.